My uncle passed away a few hours ago, and... God, I was just... devastated..
You wanna know why..? Because I feel responsible for his death.. God gave me the way to cure many people, be it hypertension, diabetes, stroke, cholesterol, cancer, osteoporosis, whatever...
Yet I wasn't able to save my own uncle... If only I pay more attention to my family's health, I could have at least tried to prevent this.. If only I haven't wasted those 4 months and focused on my job more, I could have done more for him...
Innalillahi wa innailaihi raji'un.. Rest in peace, my dear uncle.... May God smiles upon your return to His side...
Now, I'm going to say this to those who still looks down at what I'm doing, don't feel like doing it due to laziness, thinking that it's a stupid thing to do, or God knows whatever damned reasoning you have, hear this:
I've lost a member of my family, and I know that I could have done something more for him if only I was aware and more serious in doing this current job of mine. I may not be able to save his life, because it's God's decision, but at least I won't feel this much guilt..
If you still stick to your cursed idealism and still saying that you don't need my help in anyway or saying that you don't need to think about health at such young age. So be it.
But if THIS happened to you, the only one to be blamed would be yourself, and you no longer have the right to say "what can I do?"...
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