Duel of the Fates

4 hours before the killing..

There will be no mistake today, I am prepared...

The only thing I could do now is to make some last minute preparations, and pray that everything will work out smoothly..

"The righteous stand before the darkness, and the Maker shall guide their hands"
-Leliana-

You're Not In Kansas Anymore, People

Sorry for breaking my promise, I was completely busy from Monday to Wednesday that I can't even think what to write. And writing this took 2 days because of work.... Well, there are other things worth writing, but I keep forgetting what they are since I'm preoccupied by my tasks. At least I'm not alone, 2 of my best buddies, Iman & Richard, are also on the same web, so we decided to do those together.

And finally, after 3 days of madness typing in front of my laptop, a few readings of human anatomy slides, unknown number of chocolates, insufficient sleeps, a few hours with Mary and Max, two seasons of Star Wars: Clone Wars - The animated series, and some of your random wackiness, it was all over on Thursday morning at 10 o'clock.

Surviving those days without anything to look forward to is very difficult. As for us, our goal was this

Avatar,the premiere was last Thursday. And we decided to watch the one at 1430 hours.

I finished my test at around 10 o'clock on Thursday - twice, since I have to do a follow-up quiz as well - and I rushed straight home after that, because I haven't eaten anything and I haven't taken a bath on that time.

At home, after finishing everything I needed to do, I tried so hard to stay awake because I don't want to miss the show, and playing games didn't help much since I fell asleep even in the midst of Torchlight chaos. -_-

Time goes by, and at around 2pm, Iman & his brother, Fandi, picked me up - turned out HE fell asleep, lol - and we rushed ahead to pick up another passenger, Dewe, on the way. Normally we could reach our destination within less than 30 minutes, but the traffic didn't help at all..

It was already 1425 hours, and we haven't reached our destination. Things started to get really tense in the car, Dewe started spouting about the late pickup, Iman feeling guilty, Fandi annoyed by the traffic (he's driving).

I tried to calm the tension by telling them that the movie won't play on time, there will be commercials and trailers for other movies, etc. Iman could only praise my "ridiculous optimism" and keep on grieving.

We arrived at 1440 hours, me & Dewe rushed out to the theater door to wait for the others to give them their tickets. To everyone's relief, the movie haven't started yet. As for me, I already know this will happen, so it was nothing special.

After some ticket giving, popcorn grabbing, and more waiting. Me & Richard was late for around 5 minutes while everyone else has already went inside the theater. And we put on our 3D glasses, sat comfortably, and hoped that our hopes for this movie won't get let down.....

And God help us, Avatar SURPASSED everything I looked forward to.

The story was nice, although you can find those in other great movies. However, the graphics were so great that at some scenes I was unable to move with popcorn in mouth, dumbstruck. At some point, my eyes even became watery because of the outstanding scene.

The floating mountains were awesome, they reminded me to Final Fantasy's floating continents. The forest during nighttime made me speechless, it was really beautiful. The CG animations were so perfect that I can't complain at all.

This is the first movie that made me finished my regular sized popcorn after 2 hours. And I was thankful for it, because I can't even think of doing anything else during the last 30 minutes. I could only sit there and stare at the screen, with mouth open.

We got out of the theater amazed, everyone's excited and kept talking about the movie until we got out of the mall. And to myself, Avatar carved deeply into my brain that I can't watch any other movie for the time being.

I won't spoil anymore stuffs, you should watch it yourself, 3D highly recommended.

Avatar - should God decided to make a movie, this is the one closest to it next to Star Wars and The Lord of the Rings.

First Post, Bad News

Never got into the writing mood lately, although a lot of stuffs happened...
Especially when my net broke down for 5 days or so..

But I guess from now on I'll write more, just to get off my gaming doses..

Anyway, let's start with the most recent news shall we..


No, I'm not going to talk about my legs, it's the shoes..
They were stolen yesterday by some Godforsaken person who-knows-whom..

The shoes that have accompanied me everywhere.. Ah yes, we have our own memories together..

I hope wherever they are now, they will be okay.. And may God lay eternal peril on the person who separated me from them..

Dream InVader

Okay, maybe it's because I haven't posted anything up till this month, but I had a ridiculous dream last night. I was taking a stroll on a plaza with Darth Vader and we talked about various, daily stuffs. And he was quite a friendly guy there, he even tell jokes. Yes, it doesn't make any sense, I know.

Well, putting that aside, today is my sister's (or cousin, like I said before, whatever makes you happy) birthday. Let's wish her a happy birthday everyone!


Happy birthday Ririn, wish you all the best. ^_^

Oh by the way, yesterday I met Mrs. Ferawaty Hartono at Paris van Java, the wife of the greatest Indonesian billionaire that I'm familiar of and one of the richest Indonesian woman, we shook hands and talked quite casually. Honestly, I feel honored. =D

Here's her and the family

I really hope my family life can be like theirs. And I will make it happen, just watch and learn, and please don't get in the way for your own good. =p

EGamesBox Gathering, October 17th, 2009

Hey everybody, sorry for the lack of post, been busy lately. No seriously, I was.

Two days ago I went home to Jakarta to attend the EGamesBox gathering at Taman Anggrek Mall at Saturday afternoon. I thought I'd take my best friend and my junior along, since they're still members, although not the active ones. Hey the more the merrier, right?

The next day, my brother decided to tag along, since he got something to do there. And my junior said that he'll catch up later after he's done with his class. So the three of us - me, my brother, and my buddy - departed together from Kodam.

It was an awkward situation on the way there, my brother is not the kind of person who'd easily talk to strangers, and neither is my buddy. I tried to ease the situation by talking to one of them at a time, it was quite an effort, really. ~_~

Still, everything was cool until we arrived at Taman Anggrek Mall. The bus stopped to drop passengers, in the middle of the road, we started to get off the bus right then. A passenger got out, then my brother, 2 more passengers, then me... and the bus started moving and accelerated at high-speed.

See, my mind was set on getting off the bus, and I fear that the driver won't stop until the next "station", so I did what any crazies with a frantic mind would do: I jumped off.

I landed on my right foot, a VERY bad move. My left leg tried its best to balance my body, but it failed. I tried to avoid a face-first impact on the asphalt, so I turned my body during the fall.. A little to far. I landed ass-first on the asphalt, and was lying on the ground for about a second... Then a motorcycle went past my left side, missing me for a few centimeters...

My brother came back to help me get up from my NDE (Near Death Experience), all the while my legs were shaking and my hands felt so far away. But I didn't experience any fear until the next thing happened; My vision started to darken a bit by bit 'till it was near pitch black, and my ears felt like being covered by sound-dampening earmuffs.

I tried to reach out for my brother and grabbed his backpack, sticking close to him as we cross the road in my blinded, trembling state. I knew we have crossed the road when I no longer see fast movements in the dark and the fact that we no longer walking fast. Sometime after we walked further, my vision started to return bit by bit, I let go of my brother when I could at least see images of people in front of me. I leaned on my buddy while trying to stabilize my legs, after a while my vision returned to normal, although my ears were still feeling muffed.

By the time we entered the Mall, my senses have returned, although the pain were still there. We separated from my brother and went to 4th floor, where the rest of EGamesBox members were waiting.

We arrived at the meeting place, greeting everyone there. And then we just lounge around and talk about various stuffs while waiting for the rest of the members to arrive, mostly about RF Online or Point Blank. Once we waited long enough, the moderators officially opened the event.

First off, we did some kind of test to see how active we are on EGamesBox, and then we were sent off to find the moderators who scattered around the 4th floor. Once all that were done, the official event ended, and then we went outside the food court to take a picture and went to Timezone. Yes, the events during the gathering were only a few, although the gathering lasted for around 5 hours, but it's still fun nevertheless, and the last part before we got home was simply too hilarious to miss.

I learned 2 things that day: The first one is how I have made so many friends up till now, regardless of their backgrounds. This realization is really exciting and interesting at the same time, I used to be the shy guy of the class, now I could walk up to someone I never even met before and talk to them.

The second is my NDE, I realized that God haven't taken my life even after that because I still got a reason to live in this world. I'm not really sure, but I think now I know what His reason is. Let's just hope that my hunch is correct, then everything will turn out fine.

That'll be all for today I think, my body is so beat-up that I can no longer hold the aching and the sleepy feeling... Oh, by the way, if you want to look at the pictures, it's all here.

Good night everyone, oyasuminasai.

Mysterious Strangers?

First post of the month!!

I got nothing to talk about right now. Or rather, forgot what I wanted to write. =="

Although there's something noticable here. You see, I planted that visitor counter below just out of curiosity, because I always thought nobody reads this blog but myself.

Well, whaddaya know, the counter goes up by itself sometimes. No, no, it's not because I opened the blog myself, I left this blog when I went to my hometown, and the visitor count raised up to 20 points. And it's still adding up, though not frequently.

So with this post, I just want to tell you, whoever you people are, that you are always welcome to visit anytime, and please don't be shy to leave any comments or messages in the chat box, especially if we already know each other.

Or you could continue window-shopping like usual, it's alright. But it won't be as much fun don't you think? ^^

I (Almost) Can't See the Stars...

It's so small.. It's hidden and lonely, just like me..

A Poem of Hate

I spent a full week without you
Right then I realized my world was so peaceful without you

It was a whole chilly week, and you're not around
I don't really mind, for we are not bound

Now that I'm back home, you return to me
And you pester me again the way you used to be

I have no idea why God blessed you with life
For you are so annoying, I want you out of my life

So I scream in my heart, leaving echoes
Get the fuck away from me, you goddamn mosquitoes

The View of the Te Nori Taiga

As I have promised on my last post, here's my review of Toradora!


It was really great, I mean it. The story plot is nicely made, the romance is neatly flavored, and some of the comedy parts are too hilarious not to laugh at.

And it's also one of few animes I watched that made an impact on me. I started to look at life in a different way now, with more optimism and confidence. I decided to stop running away from my problems from now on.

It's also one of those that actually made me cry.. No, really, I cried on episode 19 and 25.. And it wasn't just some simple drop of tears on episode 19 by the way, I actually broke down and had to cover my face with my hands to make sure that those who were sleeping around me don't wake up from my sobbing.

So, in the end, after applying some minuses on stuffs that you would understand why after watching it yourself, I'm giving it a 9.8 out of 10.

Conclusion? Well, if you're a fan of high-school life dramas, or should you even have the tiniest drop of otaku blood in you, and you haven't watched this or even never heard of it: Go watch it. Now. Quickly.

"Even if the sky is pitch black, with nothing to see, there will be stars shining somewhere out there. If I keep shining brighter and brighter, I'll definitely look better to people."
That's why, I won't run away anymore. I have to change. I have to accept everything. I will be proud of myself.

- Aisaka Taiga

Tadaima, Minna~!!

Ta
Dai
Ma~!!

We're finally back from Bukit Tinggi!! God I really miss the internet... >_<

Many things happened back home, a lot of them are interesting. However, I don't think they'll fit in if I write them all here, would they?

First thing first, here's my grandma's house.


And here's the panoramic view from there.


And here are the creatures that filled the days we had at home.

As you can see, they don't really care about our own well being =="

We also went to some places, though most of them are our relatives' houses, which you might find not interesting, so I won't spill it here. But, here's a panoramic view as a freebie.


Ah, I also watched Toradora! from beginning to the end while I was there, review will follow after this post.

Well, I think that should be all for the short review of my homevillage visit. For those who are interested to know more, feel free to chat with me whenever I'm available at Yahoo Messenger.

Cheers to all. ^^v

Homeward Bound

I'm going to my home village today at Bukit Tinggi, West Sumatra. So I won't be able to get online till at least next Thursday.

Boy, it has been so long since my last visit there, wonder how many things have changed after all these time.

It might sound odd, but today's departure worry me a bit. Don't know why, maybe I just miss being inside an airplane

Oh, and this will be the first time for Reno-chan (my lappy) to travel overseas, I do hope she won't get vertigo or nausea on the way.

Ah, by the way Rissa, my sis, asked me to bring her the Gadang clock tower. Can't wait to see her face when I get home. =D

That'll be all for now, hope to see you all again next week. Bye-bee.

Poetic Exhibition

Ok, I might carve utter disbelief upon your mind, but I wrote a love poem today.

You wanna see? Well, here goes

It’s been years since we first met
Since all those time that we have spent
All the while, I thought you were just a friend
Now I realize you are something more instead

The beaming light from your smile, so fair
The radiant presence of you fills the air
You’re always there for me whenever I wish
This bond we share shall never perish

You are the chime of warm breeze,
The moon that glows through the trees
And within the luster of evening
Your aura echoes in the surrounding

Some say perfection is unattainable
For most things that's explainable,
But in your arms and with your heart's affection
I have found a brief moment of perfection

Time has healed our many wounds,
But has not erased the memory of us
But we'll hold on, we'll stay together
We will get through this, you and me forever

You always understand me truly
I wish we could be together completely
But it is a transient dream went cold
For we came from completely different world

However, the fact remains that this feeling is true
I can’t even find any further reason to argue
That I’m in love with you for real
Claes Cobaltine, my dear

Well, this is actually an improvement from a poem that I wrote for my novel (which is quite to my liking), but I modified it to be used in a movie which me and my friends are planning to make. I changed the name that comes in the last line so that it meets the requirement.

Oh, and for your information; Claes Cobaltine, or in short, Cobalt, is the full name of my computer.

The Fashion Day

"Lebaran sebentaaar lagi...."
..So they say. Well, it is coming soon.. But that's not the main point here.

I bet I'm not the only one complaining about the trend that happens every single time we, moslems, celebrate Lebaran; The never ending madness of fashion show-offs.

My parents pointed out the reason of why people always buy new clothes for the big day as "To show how much we care about our children and to show respect to the people we visit".

It's still sounds like brahmin dung to me. I mean, if you go so far as to buy new clothes with hundreds thousand of rupiahs, simply to show that you care for your children to other people, wouldn't it be considered merely as to "protecting your pride as a parent"?

And if you want to show respect to the people that you visit, you don't need to use freshly bought clothes, all you need are tidy clothes that reflects your sincere motive of maintainin silaturahmi with the people you visit. Wouldn't using freshly bought clothes every year for your visit could mean you showing off your wealth?

On top of it all, there is no such saying from the prophet Muhammad that "you should buy new clothes for every Lebaran".

I have no idea when this trend started. It feels like the "chocolate giving" trend in Valentine's days

Eiii, Whatever

Sometimes I get this feeling that this blog is not being read by anyone but me. Due to the nearly straight zero comments from all of my posts, or the chat box where you can hear the sound of a falling pin.

Hell would I care, I'm gonna keep talking anyway, lol. :))

Ok, today - at 2pm to be exact - I'm supposed to do some speech practice at my public speaking school. And because I fell sick since 2 days ago, I haven't wrote anything for the outline, so up till now I don't know what should I talk about.

I know the topic theme though, which shouldn't be so hard except it's supposed to be a 10 minutes long speech, when my longest record was only 7 minutes.

Heh, I hope I'll get through just fine. Fear is but an illusion of mind. I can do it.. I can do it.. >__<

Well, back to the outline planning then. See ya.

Flame Hazed

Just finished watching Shakugan no Shana first season yesterday. I know, I know, it's something that I supposed to watch like 2 years ago.. But two years ago I didn't have this much interest in anime yet.

Okay then, my review; it's not an oh-so-awesome anime, as many people has pointed out as well, probably because of the story's complexity, but.... it's really, really, worth watching it, trust me.

However, if you're not into animes that require some thinking to keep up with the story, you might want to pass this, it'll be quite confusing for you puny folks. =p

Now if only I didn't delete the 2nd season by mistake years ago.... ;_;

Anyway, here's Shana's pic as a freebie.

Very cute huh? ^_^
Now, thanks to her I would love to know what a melon bread tastes like..

Well, I guess what my kouhai said a long time ago is true; maybe I do have a fetish to cute/beautiful sword-wielding girls... >_<

Side story:
I had ANOTHER dream about me going to junior high again, at this same age. So I enrolled college and junior high at the same time. And the scene changed to a pool where.. Shana was throwing pocky-sticks at Kagami as though they were kunais... Then the scene changed again, I became Yuji and was being carried by Metamorphosis Sydonay, with Shana on his back trying to save me.

I woke up after realizing the dream had gone too weird. =="

That'll be all for this time then.

Day One

Yo yo yooo, first day of fasting is ooovaaahh!! How y'all doin out dere?

So, anyway, putting aside the DJ style, I got stuffs to tell today.


First day of fasting; My version:
-After our early meal today I went to bed after our morning prayer.
-Woke up at around 10 in the morning
-Surfing the net till around 11
-Played Lineage 2 till around 1
-Doing miscellaneous stuffs till around 4
-Played Lineage 2 again till around past 5
-Broke the fast at around 6, and there you go.

Not so productive huh? Who cares, I can tell you're simply envious.

But there are noticeable things worth mentioning. First off, the spamming of religious shows on TV. I'm okay with the actual shows, but they even made some stupid soap operas in the name of commemorating the Ramadhan.

Second, I went to do taraweh this night, and boy it was cramped. Can't wait to see how it will develop after 2 weeks or so, will there be more people or even lesser? Who knows.

And there's the firecrackers, no I'm not going to complain anything about it, it's not bad at my neighborhood. It even looks fun actually.

That's it today I guess, gotta go to bed soon. Cherio.

It has Begun, Again

First day of college... When I'm supposed to be working and earning my own money..
Anyway, nothing much has changed, really. Let's do some review:

-Administration : Still a mess, our study cards are not out yet, even though they're supposed to be due now. And there's still the fee payment problems as well, a lot of people got into trouble.

-Management : My morning class, which I came to quite early thus sacrificing my sleep time, which was supposedly for less than 20 people, was completely crowded by 70s. No one in the management section did anything about it? Come on...

-Attitude : Checked my campus' forum, looking at the new students around the campus, and I could simply say that the arrogance of the students are still hot in the air around them. Showing off GPAs, saying a subject is a piece of cake to someone who is troubled by it, smoking in public. Seriously.

So, nothing is really interesting. Except for the part when I met sister to see how she's doing on her first day, and also this one:


Yes, you didn't see it wrong, that girl passed away. I heard it was due to some rare disease that I don't know about. And she was about to graduate as well... What? No, I don't know anything about that girl up till now, but it's just too sad to hear.. I mean, I bet she got a bright future waiting for her, and that face just shows that she's a cheerful girl.

God, You're just so picky sometimes..

A Dream So Real that It Hurts

I dreamed of milady again last night, just like most of the times. But this time, I could even still feel it..

In my dream, she returned everything I gave her before, including the consumable ones. And she told me that she was sorry to have made me wasted the near two years time that we spent together just to get separated like this...

I was speechless then, and broke into tears. I hugged her tightly and told her that those times were not wasted, they were in fact the most precious ones that I had spent so happily in my entire life. I also apologized for not being able to fulfill her wishes in the end, and pray that she would be happy forever...

I can't remember the rest of the stuffs that happened there..

But I do remember I woke up with tears still shedding, and I could still feel her softness even up till now....

Dear God... Please make her happy...

It is Useless to Resist the Writing Mood

Have you guys ever stopped and thought about the number of students that suffers from depression, be it from academic issues, social issues, or even family issues?

If you are a parent, have you ever looked at your children, acting like there's nothing wrong with them just so that you won't worry, because they care about you a lot?
Or simply because they're afraid to be scolded for not being a perfect child like you expected them to be, so much that they pretend that they're okay while deep inside they're torn apart?

Have you ever considered anything else about them, other than their school and their grades, important? Have you ever listened to them at all?

Seriously, what's wrong with people these days?? There are uncountable parents out there who, force their children to go to schools or colleges that they don't want to go just so that they could brag about it to their friends, scold them too far or hit them just because they got low marks even when the child had done their best, and restricted them from going out with their friends if not under constant surveillance (a phone call every half an hour and a go-home-or-no-food call after 2 hours).

What, you think I'm exaggerating huh? Well open your eyes, short-sight. I've read news, I've seen living proofs, I've BEEN a living proof for some cases.

I've read news about students half my age attempted suicide, what the hell happened in that family?? And their parents stories would be, "I don't know, he/she never talked to me about his/her problems". Well, maybe if they allowed their child to tell stories other than their school or grades, or at least be interested about it, things might gone better.

And 10-year olds doing drugs? High percentage of free sex at junior high? For God's sake, where are their parents when they're still learning about social ethics?? Offices? Saloons? Arisans??

Incidents on children while playing with their friends because they were imitating WWF moves, children involved in criminal activities so far that they shot people because they play too much GTA. Grown-ups will simply decide "It's the show's fault, we should ban it from TV", or "It's the game's fault, video-games do nothing but destroying our children".... IDIOTS!!

If they were imitating WWF, why don't we recall its show time... dead midnight.. Why in the world did they let their child stay up late, watching TV, on that age?? Do they actually care about how they would grow up to be?? I don't watch WWF, I don't even like it, I'm just pissed by the dungheads who blamed it.

They play too much GTA... GTA is rated M for Mature, so officially it's for 17 years above, practically it's for 15 year olds who can tell the difference between a game and reality. If the parents can't even explain that to their child, they should get their child adopted by more competent parents.

Because it's either that they're just too damn dumb to do that, or they don't care anything about their children as long as they got good marks at school so they never even communicate about daily life stuffs, which makes games as the closest "friend" that the children could ever have at home, even more so if they're restricted from outdoor activity due to academic reasons.

On a side note, believe me, I've seen and heard this with my eyes and ears, accompanied with my brother; We were looking for a game DVD at a store, and we overheard a kid around 8-10 years old talking to an adult (probably his dad or uncle) about what game should he buy. Well, the adult recommended GTA San Andreas, holding it to the kid. I could no longer foresee the bright future of the upcoming generations.....

Those are the extreme obvious effects from a wrong home education, the subtle ones are just as dangerous. Ever seen people these days became so arrogant to other people simply because they are smarter or richer? Wearing trousers inappropriately? Cutting through a line of queue with no respect to the person who got there first? Throwing trash anywhere they want shamelessly? Yup, those are the products of mannerless home education.

I have a friend, who's still a first grader in senior high, and his life at home hurts me. I always thought I had it bad on my days, well this kid got a lot worse I can't even start to explain it. As a result, now he's a pessimistic anti-social otaku who can't even talk to a girl from a normal real world, jeez.

Not taking it too far, I got a friend at college who can't even talk to a shopkeeper when he wants to buy stuffs that he don't understand, and he's not allowed outside of home unless when he goes to campus. Yes, he's 23. Good Lord...

So don't be surprised if children these days will do this even if the old man didn't told them to, I know I did.


Sorry for the rant, I suddenly got in a mood of writing, I even continued my novel project...

Huh, what? My Final Task? Ah... well.....
.....
..eetoo...
..That's all for today logging off tha2.

I Ask You, are You My Figurine?

I went to Cihampelas Walk yesterday with my friends to watch G.I Joe. It's quite a nice movie despite me forgetting everything about the cartoon version (save Snake Eyes), and some inappropriate things. A lot of stuffs happened too, and some are just too funny to not laugh at (e.g car 'suspension', some certain scream of terror, leaving people behind, etc).

Before we watched the movie, we stroll around the mall. Ate dinner, looking around at the pet shop, buying stuffs from the market.. And that's when I saw something that caught my eyes so tight that it won't let go; A Saber figurine holding her lion doll!!

I thought about getting it while we walked around a bit more, then I decided to go for it. It's also cheaper than it looks, for 35k I got a nice figurine of the second anime girl that I actually fell in love with.

Here's her standing on top of Cobalt


I wish they got Setsuna's or Hinagiku's... ah well, I'm thankful that I could get this one without any fuss anyways.

Oh Dear...

So here's the deal; We, my brother and me, decided to watch Up! together on this weekend. And I suggested right away that we should take our cousins too. He left me with the arrangements, inviting, checking the time schedule, those stuffs.

So I was looking at the movie schedules on the XXI theater. And here's what I saw



Yep, those are the core of genuine Indonesian movies... Horrors..
But it's not the theme that I'm worrying about as you can see..

For God's sake, can't they at least get a better title for them?? =____="

New Widget, Another Step Closer on Becoming an Otaku.. >_<

Hello2, long time no see.

Sorry for the vacuum, lately I always don't know what to write, yet my head is filled with stories...

Which are mostly related to my dream-novel..

Anyway, see that cute girl on the right? Bet some of you know who she is.

Yup, she's Hatsune Miku, a vocaloid character.


Hm? No, I haven't actually heard any of her songs, expect for one demo song that I'm currently listening. A really peaceful melody, I must add.

I'll be writing something else anytime soon, I'm quite in a mellow mood these days anyway.

Before the Crisis

Testing new communication link....
..Done..

Sorry for the vacuum, I had relocate my crib for quite some time actually, and the network here is... well, to be honest... Kinda lame..

I'd love to stay and tell some more stories, there's so much that I could talk about.. but I have two exams tomorrow (no, wait, it's today now). So I need to get up early, and I won't be able to do that if I sleep late at night, no?

"But why are you here posting then?" You might ask. Well, it's simply because I found something that I might forget if I wait 'till afternoon.

It's the birthday of my anime-twin-sister!



Happy birthday Kona-chan!!

Well, with that done.. time to fall back to bed now......






FAQ time:
Q: "Why didn't you post about Secchan's birthday like you did Kona-chan's? You're supposed to be her fan"
A: "And let her get surrounded by those perverted wolves out there? Hell no. 'Sides, we celebrated it privately <3"

I Find Your Lack of Faith.... Amusing...

Well, I don't know about you guys, but I find this too much to handle



:))

Where it All Began....

An ordinary wall, and an ordinary fence.. Yet both played a role.. As a witness..

There, 2 years ago, a boy and a girl talked to each other after the girl pulled the boy out of the building behind the fence, indicating the thing she wanted to talk about was a private matter..

There, 2 years ago, when the moon was nowhere to be seen, the girl confessed to the boy that she had fallen in love with him...

There, 2 years ago, when the stars were only a few, the boy also admitted that he was interested in the girl without realizing it..

There, 2 years ago, 14th of April, at approximately 2255 hours, the boy and the girl became a couple...

There, 2 years ago, the boy found happiness for the first time, and he believed that this will last forever...

Yet..

There, 40 minutes ago, when the boy took this picture as a memento... He was already alone once more...

There, 40 minutes ago, the boy - his soul broken, with a hole where his heart should be - realized, that good things are meant to end... And happiness aren't meant to last..

Getting Closer...

2 Days left before "that day"...

I really hope the pain stops by then.. It's getting unbearable everyday.....

Especially after seeing their picture together... I can't believe they'd put it there to be seen by public so soon...

How.. tactless....

Multi-tasking Hazard

I think it's true that men are not as good as women for multitasking purposes. Here's why.

I had my hands quite full a few hours ago: Was browsing topics for my Engineering ethics take-home test, browsing nice mods for Fallout 3 and searching for some mod troubleshooting, reading my friend's blog, doing wall-to-wall chat with my potential sister-in-law gonnabe at Facebook, browsing for some AYBABTU stuffs, and chatting at Yahoo Messenger. All at the freakin' same time.

And a few minutes ago, I realized I can no longer concentrate on doing things due to the multi-tasking mayhem. Feeling thirsty, I poured some water to my cup, and here's what happened:


Yep, the cup's condition was unchanged before pouring the water up to after I have written this down. I only moved it a little to clean up the mess.

Thinking I should stop doing anything else before I mess something up again, I decided to go to bed.





For you slowpokes who still don't get what happened yet: I was pouring the water to my cup, with its lid still in place. And not realizing it for around 3 seconds or so. Capiche? =_="

And Another One Goes Away..

Just last week, my sister (or cousin, whatever makes you happy) passed her conference session in order to determine her graduation. Since she got through with no problems, this means she will be graduated on next month.

Of course, such occasion won't do well without any celebration, so my uncle held a feast at Hanamasa. I returned to Bandung just in time for this. :p

Here's my sister along with her friends from Microbiology faculty

And here's her parents, my uncle and auntie, during their happy moments of their daughter's success

And here's our sister and brother-in-law, sharing some moment of their own. :)

And here's the main star of that day, my most beloved sister


I was so happy that I shed some tears of joy when I got back to my crib.. =,)

Although it's quite sad to lose another sibling, but life must go on right? Besides, this means that I have to struggle harder if I claim myself to be a loving brother for my cousins.

Congratulations sis, I hope you achieve all your dreams.. Love you. ^_^


"I don't have any particular dream to fulfill, I'm not that kind of person... But I simply don't want to let down those who love me and believed in me, that's why I don't want to give up..." - Rizka Febriana

We are not Venom

I bet you all know Venom and/or Carnage from Spiderman right?

Well, I'm planning to make another symbiotic alien character just like them, fusing itself to its host, giving the host several abilities, capable of forming some kind of body armor while giving the host significant increase to physical attributes, etc2.

Of course, the body armor form won't look this hideous (although it's able to, especially in its more demonic forms)

But it'll be black too, nevertheless.

It will start as an evil character, being an exile from it's planet, until it fuses with another character of mine - my novel's main character - and starts to value other lifeforms.

It also has a mind of its own, interacting with the host, blocking harmful objects reflexively, even popping out unexpectedly just for its own amusement.

Even though I've figured out what kind of abilities and drawbacks it will provide, I still got no fixed name for it, I'm thinking of Kael'loran for the time being. If I can't find anything better, I'll go with that.

The Jedi Code

There is no emotion...
There is peace.

There is no ignorance...
There is knowledge.

There is no passion...
There is serenity.

There is no chaos...
There is harmony.

There is no death...
There is the Force.

Long Time No See =_=

It really has been a while since I came back here the last time huh? Well it can't be helped...

Right after I finished my first phase of final assignment, I replayed Neverwinter Nights 2. Right after that I played the expansion, Mask of Betrayer. And almost immediately ater I beat that I replayed Knights of the Old Republic.

So, yeah, it was quite a busy 2 months, no? :p

Anyway, let's open up this story of the month with my dream this morning

Yep, I still remember it quite well enough. The scene was.. Well.. Inside a pyramid that suspiciously similar to the Tomb of Tulak Hord in KotOR. And there was even the mad man himself in there.

Oddly enough, there are no walls. Next to the floors are a bottomless pit. Not to mention the floors themselves are floating. O_o

I went into this pyramid with a party of explorers. The path from the entrance was completely straight-forward, besides being curved up and down time and time again.

After a not-so-long walk, we found a relic standing atop of a pedestal, with Jorak standing next to it. He said that if we want to claim the relic, we had to answer all his questions correctly.

The questions were not too difficult, until the last one when he asked whether anyone of us would kill each other for the relic. We said no, of course. Well, as a mad man he was, he claimed it as a wrong answer, and started to glow like a Super Saiyan (a bald super saiyan, to be exact @_@).

Since this is MY dream, some guy from my party whacked his head with a Frying pan before he could do anything. ~_~

Apparently Jorak was some kind of a guardian of the pyramid, because after we kicked his bald butt the pyramid started to collapse upon us. So we grabbed the relic and ran like hell to the entrance...

Which, unfortunately, was slowly closing down, and I was the last of the line, pretty far from others actually, since I was the one carrying the relic...

The others made it in a near miss, as for me it was even nearer. After the guy in front of me managed to escape, the floor behind him - in front of me - collapsed, I didn't know what else to do but jump.

Now here's the wacky part, I actually managed to jump from debris to debris and grabbed the floor on the entrance gate and hoisted myself up, rolled under the closing gate, and I was outside.

I woke up stunned.

I mean, really, not even the Prince or Altair would ever be able to do that kind of stunt. And I really wish I'm actually able to.. O_O

Just You and Me Now...

I've taken out the last two exams yesterday. Hopefully they'll come out good..

Now all that remains is my final task...

God, I wish I understand what the hell am I supposed to do in it...

Another year for the world

Happy belated new year!!...Is what I want to say. Seriously, didn't realize it was already a next day. =_=''

I was planning to post last night but me and my friend downstairs were having a good time terrorizing Liberty City with our own TX-3000 Terminator codenamed "Niko Bellic", completely invulnerable to bullets, explosions, high drops, extreme collisions - you name it, armed with complete arsenal of destruction in unlimited ammo, and has a certain interest in molotov cocktail complete with a Hobgoblin obsession minus the hoverboard plus an NRG 900.

I spend my new year's eve with my 3 cousins, it wasn't really a roof raising activity, we only strolled to Paris van Java, ate at a Japanese Restaurant, watching 2 movies in a row (!), and hanging out on the edge of the parking lot while waiting for the traffic to calm down.

Nevertheless, it was another moment of my life that I will cherish forever. Back then the only new year events that I do was whispering "happy new year" quietly in my bed when the clock reached 00.00 and sending messages to my buddies, then going to sleep.

Here's the lonely quartet, separated from home where the rest of the family was having a big time Barbecue party.


Aditya Ramadhan aka Adit - my cousin, my brother, my homie - and Anita Pravitasari aka Anita or Nyta - my dear cousin who, in our childhood, was able to completely piss me off just with 3 words (lol) -, a great example of loving siblings. If you want to read Nyta's blog, it's right here, though recently she started a new one.


Rizka Febriana aka Rissa - my dearest cousin, closest to a sister, who's always able to cheer me up whenever I bother her with the stories of my broken life - and Nyta. Two girls who really likes novels and movies.


This is all three of them on the escalator ride. Sorry for the blur guys, the peaceful moment was just moving, get me? Haha. :D


Yep, that's me. Their unreliable big brother who's willing to give up even his life for them whenever the situation calls for it..

That's all for now I guess. My eyelids are giving up.. >.<